I often push people away just because I’m afraid they’re going to leave anyways. I don’t want to get false hope that they care, and then when you need them.. they’re never there for you. I’ve been lied to and messed with too many times, so I might as well push everyone away.
(Source: Phaibooty, via yoitstricia)
I’m tired of people saying this, then I feel special for the next 5 minutes. And what comes next, is some 5 minute conversation about “needing to catch up” or “we need to chill again” type of conversation. If you actually miss or missed me, wouldn’t you try your best to keep in contact with me? Wouldn’t you tell me you miss me often, instead of randomly when you’re bored?
(Source: Phaibooty)
I wonder if you’re texting someone else, or calling someone else. I’m afraid someone else has your attention. I’m sorry if I’m selfish, but I want to be the only one.
(Source: Phaibooty)
I text you. I call you. I miss you. I pay extra attention to you. There’s no one else, but you.
(Source: Phaibooty)
- I’m sorry I’m depressed.
- I’m sorry I can’t handle my emotions.
- I’m sorry I can’t be reliable.
- I’m sorry I shut everyone out.
- I’m sorry I don’t know what I want or need.
- I’m sorry I can’t make anyone happy.
but really, I’m sorry for being me.
(Source: Phaibooty)
where I feel like giving up on everything and everyone. I’ve been losing hope in friends, relationships, and people in general. I’m tired of getting backstabbed, lied to, and not even being trusted at all. I get so much of this “bullshit” that I’m getting suffocated with it. I need a day to get away from all of this.
(Source: Phaibooty)
I don’t do this on purpose but, I start shutting everyone else out. All my friends, and school classmates start drifting from me because I start focusing on my relationship more. Don’t get me wrong, I like the friendship. Its just I have someone great that I’m with, and I don’t plan to lose them. So I put my all into the relationship to keep it alive.
(Source: Phaibooty)
I needed to get this out.
Everyone was right, and I knew they were.. but I didn’t want to believe it. My dad will never change. He will never accept his responsibilities no matter what. Its been 4 almost 5 years since he left us, and its the same bullshit. He left us struggling, no money, no one to lean on, no place to stay. And we’re still struggling even after 4 years. After today, I’ve come to realize that hes the reason why my sister, my mom, and I want to commit suicide. He’s the reason why this family is falling apart. Hes the reason why.
(Source: Phaibooty)
My insecurities get to me. I have so many I can’t even maintain a healthy relationship with anyone. I always think I’m not good enough for someone, or they deserve better. For example my jealousy issues, at first we’re happy and I don’t mind because we’re in the “honeymoon” phase. Then later on, small things like texts, calls, or even hugs start to bug me. The thing is once they really get to me, my ugly side comes out. I can’t help it, but to hide it until I burst.
(Source: Phaibooty)
If I’m interested in you, you’re all I see. I won’t look at anyone else, or want anyone else. Everything I say and do, is only to you and no one else.
I need help, but no one will provide me with that help. I need help getting stable, and maintaining that stability. No one is willing to do that, or doesn’t know how. I can’t tell them what to do to fix me, because I have no idea how the fuck I’m going to be fine. Maybe its best to just forget everything and everyone.
(Source: Phaibooty)
